Adell and I went out to get her new sneakers for school. She tried on a bunch of sneakers in a variety of styles before settling on the very first pair she had tried on. As we walked out of the shoe section we passed the bitty baby shoes. I felt a little twang in my heart as I thought, I'll never buy little baby shoes again. I'm all done with that.
I was startled by the heartache I felt! We knew our family would be complete when Colter was born. I didn't even have a second thought and haven't felt like we needed more babies since. It has been lovely. And honestly, my heartache wasn't because I want another baby...just that I wont do it again.
It happened again a few days later. I had to go down the baby isle in Target to find a bottle brush. School is starting and I needed a tool to clean deep inside our reusable water bottles for lunches. As I passed pacifiers, diapers and bumbo seats I felt that little twang again. I don't think I've been in the baby isles of a store in 2 years! If I think about it, from the year 2001 up until maybe 2015 every trip I ever made to a store included a run through the baby isles. That is a lot of years of getting baby crap.
In the same trip to Target I made a trip down the back to school isles picking up a few supplies before school started. And that is when it all came together! I am so emotional about not having a baby anymore because my last baby is starting Kindergarten! It really feels different and final. Colter will be in school with everyone else, every day!
All summer long I have looked forward to the freedom I will have for a few hours every day. All of a sudden, my emotions betrayed me. All of a sudden, I was sad?! I was going to miss these little creeps and all the trouble they cause me all day long.
So I guess I'll try and enjoy the last few days before school starts. I'll try to catch Colter's enthusiasm. None of the other kids are looking forward to school. They know it is a trick...and I know it too.
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